Para's Ponderings

I can’t say that I’ve spent countless hours imagining a future that doesn’t exist.

I can’t say that everything has changed.

There’s a lot I can’t say, a lot I can’t explain. I used to always know the right things to say, but now it feels like my words might have consequences.

I can’t seem admit to myself that all of this might be beyond my comprehension

I can’t admit to myself that I care. I care so deeply. I care about this more than anything.

I can’t explain why time moves so slowly.

I can’t explain why I feel so warm, even when it’s freezing cold.

I can’t explain anything.

There is one thing I know, and it’s taken a lot of contemplation. I don’t think I’m ready to accept it yet.